Showing posts with label healing from trauma. Show all posts
Showing posts with label healing from trauma. Show all posts

Thursday, November 13, 2025

No Rain, No Flowers - My Pink Sweatshirt

 

No Rain, No Flowers - My Pink Sweatshirt

I sit in my big red writing chair as rain pours down on a dark, gloomy Thursday in November. Outside my window, I watch the English-style garden in front of my home. My neighbour planted wildflowers there earlier this summer. Although I love gardening, travel kept me too busy to help nurture the little patch of earth that now bursts with colour. Each morning, I’m surprised to see those flowers still standing tall. Fall is nearly over, winter is on its way, yet our garden remains vibrant. Their resilience mirrors the unseasonable rain and rare bursts of autumn sunshine that kept them alive.

Watching the flowers, I’m reminded of a pink sweatshirt I bought a year ago at the Ontario Shores thrift shop during my stay in the psychiatric unit. It reads, “No Rain, No Flowers.” Literally, the phrase fits, our garden owes its beauty to the rain. But as I sat there, I wondered what if the same idea applied to life?

Perhaps it means that the storms we face, the pain, loss, trauma, and the lows that test our strength, are also what help us bloom. The rain becomes the challenge that makes growth possible. The dark days we fight through prepare us for moments of joy and clarity. Healing, like growth, begins in the storm.

When our personal “flowers” finally bloom, they stand as proof of our resilience. If we are the flowers, strong yet fragile, then life itself is the rain. It’s natural to run for cover when the storm hits, but what if instead we stood in it? What if we let it wash away what no longer serves us, cleansing us for what comes next? Avoiding the rainfall only delays healing. Facing it invites transformation.

Flowers, like people, bend under pressure but rise again when the sun returns. The rain may weigh us down, but the warmth that follows restores us. Just as petals lift toward the light after the storm, so do we when we allow pain to teach us rather than define us.

In life, the rain will always come first. Heartbreak, grief, fear, and disappointment will pour down at times, testing our resolve. But after every storm, the sun reappears. Our tears dry. And with patience, we grow back stronger, blooming into the version of ourselves we were always meant to be.

No rain, no flowers. No pain, no healing. No struggle, no growth.

Saturday, August 9, 2025

Life Lessons Series: It is during our darkest moments that we must focus to see the light. - Aristotle

 

Life Lesson Series: It is during our darkest moments that we must focus to see the light. - Aristotle

Life Lesson #12

“It is during our darkest moments that we must focus to see the light.” – Aristotle


The Philosopher Queen vs. The Philosopher King

My mother always told me, everything in the darkness must come to light. She wasn’t speaking about philosophy, but about the lies people tell—both to others and themselves. Big or small, she believed truth would always reveal itself because, as she often said, God would have it no other way.

When I first read Aristotle’s words, I thought of her. The famous philosopher spoke of life’s darkest seasons, urging us to focus on the light—a symbol of better times. The “light” is deeply personal, shaped by our own experiences. No two dark moments are the same, and no two people see the light in exactly the same way.


Skyline Stars and the Light of Day

Life often offers more shadows than sunlight. Even when I thought I was standing in the light, darkness found a way to creep in—like a city skyline glowing faintly but still overshadowed by night.

At times, stars lit my path; other times, clouds swallowed them whole, leaving me lost. Eventually, the sun would rise, but the shadows lingered, waiting for my return.


The Lies I Told Myself

I have known the kind of darkness where you can only put one foot in front of the other, moving forward on faith alone. You stumble, fall, and rise again, fighting against what feels immovable—until one day, light seeps in, filling your eyes, your heart, and your soul.

When I think about my mother’s wisdom and Aristotle’s belief, I see they’re the same truth: every dark moment in my life has been fuelled by the lies I told myself.
  • After my assault as a teenager, I told myself I wasn’t worth protecting.
  • When I turned to substances in university to self-medicate my anxiety and early symptoms of Bipolar disorder, I told myself I was being brave—not running away.
  • When I was diagnosed with Bipolar I disorder, I told myself that denying it meant it wasn’t real. I fought against the current, believing I could never drown.


Darkest Fears Come to Light

The darkest night of my life came one November. After 25 years of substance use, unmanaged mental health, self-deception, and fear, I felt completely spent. I had tried to live positively, to shine the light of my mother and grandmother, but I could no longer escape the darkness inside me—unhealed trauma, deep shame, and fear of both failure and success.

That night, I spoke to God and to myself, admitting how tired I was. I asked for help. In that moment, I felt a small but undeniable light within me—peace, possibility, and the first flicker of healing.

The darkness didn’t vanish overnight, but I carried that light forward, remembering both my mother’s words and Aristotle’s: the lies we tell ourselves must turn into truth before light can break through. During our darkest moments, we must focus on the light ahead—the beacon of better days waiting for us.


Final Reflection

Thank you to my Philosopher Queen—my mother—and the Philosopher King, Aristotle, for teaching me this:
The light at the end of the darkest tunnel is also the light inside of me.