Showing posts with label anxiety reduction. Show all posts
Showing posts with label anxiety reduction. Show all posts

Monday, December 16, 2024

A Bipolar Woman’s Self-Reflection on Fear - Part 1: Feel The Fear

A Bipolar Woman’s Self-Reflection on Fear - Part 1: Feel The Fear

By Onika Dainty


I feel fear. I worry constantly over what ifs, and I have anxiety about my future. Even though I know these emotions are reasonable and rational, it doesn't stop the fear and anxiety from consuming me on a regular basis. I remember growing up feeling afraid of a lot of things a lot of the time. I learned brutal lessons at an early age that taught me to not trust, to doubt myself, to fear failure.

I fear disappointing people, I fear being disappointed by people; I fear being alone and I fear making connections; I fear being unloved or forgotten and I fear being remembered for the wrong things. But the biggest thing I fear is the vast unknowingness of the future.

I try to live a life of certainty, staying in the realm of things I can control. Some would call me a control freak, but I just think I’m careful, cautious. But I started to find in recent years that the carefully constructed world that I had created for myself was falling apart around me. I was losing everything, especially losing sight of my goals. I needed to make a change because being fearful was stopping me from following my dreams and achieving my goals. I realized that my future was mine to make so it was time to stop fearing the unknown and jump in both feet first regardless of the outcome. I vowed I would be fearless in my pursuit of happiness; I would take risks big and small to build and create the future I want for myself. It was time to feel the fear and do it anyway and that’s exactly what I did.

One year later, I am about to be a published author. I have my own podcast and my writing, pieces that I have held back for years are out there for all the world to read. I know I’m on the right track to reaching my destination. Do I still feel fear? Absolutely but I know those are just thoughts and worries. Thoughts are not facts and are not based in reality. I realized though my thoughts tend to go to dark places sometimes I have learned that breaking free from the darkness and having hope is ultimately the key to fulfilling the dreams I hold for my future. I have to have faith in myself and God that I’m going in the right direction because hope without faith is fear, and my new ambition is to move forward on my journey with fearless abandon.

 

Final Thought


I wrote the above entry in my first attempt at blogging in 2018. Life for me has changed a lot. Like I said I still feel fears and anxiety especially around my future success. Back then fear was all-consuming and I had very little confidence in my abilities. Although I had a successful podcast, The DaintyDysh Podcast where I had candid conversations about my mental health and the mental health of others in my community. Even though I was claiming the title of writer, podcaster and public speaker I felt like a fraud. I was constantly looking over my shoulder fearing that I would be found wanting, an untalented imposter. Even though I reference the book I read as a young girl, Feel The Fear And Do It Anyway by author Susan Jeffers, the fear never truly went away. It’s only now that I am living the truth of those words. I thought it was important to reflect on the fears that have always held me back, kept me stuck, and paralysed me making it impossible to move forward. A Bipolar Woman’s Self-Reflection on Fear is a series of entries that will allow you a window into my past and insight on my present and the lessons I’ve learned over the years that have put fear in my rearview mirror. 



Coming Soon


I have also decided to share with you the lessons that inspired me to be fearless and relentless in my pursuit of happiness and success. I will be posting the life lessons that have shaped and influenced my personal growth and development. A Bipolar Woman’s Self-Reflection: 42 Years of Lessons series begins on December 30, 2024, my 42nd Birthday. It is my hope that these lessons will touch your lives and inspire positive change on your journey to wellness.    

Saturday, October 26, 2024

The Importance of Mindfulness in Bipolar Management

The Importance of Mindfulness in Bipolar Management

By Onika Dainty

When I first learned about mindfulness, I was skeptical. The idea of sitting quietly with my thoughts seemed, at best, daunting. However, after experiencing the highs and lows of Bipolar I disorder, I discovered that mindfulness isn't just a buzzword—it's a lifeline. Did you know that studies show mindfulness can significantly reduce anxiety and depressive symptoms? It’s true. By becoming more aware of our emotions and reactions, we can navigate our mental health journeys more effectively.

What is Mindfulness?

Mindfulness is about being fully present in the moment, observing your thoughts and feelings without judgment. Originating from ancient meditation practices, it has made its way into modern psychology. The essence of mindfulness lies in its simplicity: recognizing our thoughts as they arise, allowing us to understand our emotional landscape better. For someone managing Bipolar I disorder, this awareness can be incredibly beneficial.

When I began practicing mindfulness, I found it helped me distinguish between my genuine feelings and the heightened emotions often associated with mania or depression. It became a tool for grounding myself in reality, even when my mind wanted to take me on a wild ride.

Mindfulness as a Way of Life

For me, mindfulness transcends mere tasks. It’s not just about meditation or yoga—though those practices are beneficial. Mindfulness is about how you behave in everyday life. It’s a way of approaching every moment with intention and awareness.

I practice yoga every morning, which helps me connect with my body and set a positive tone for the day. Yoga teaches me to be aware of my breath and movements, grounding me in the present. Following my yoga session, I take time for meditation, which further deepens my mindfulness practice. But beyond these routines, I strive to be mindful in all aspects of my daily life.

From the moment I wake up, I engage with the world around me. I take a moment to appreciate the quiet of the morning and the warmth of the sunlight streaming through my window. As I prepare for the day, I focus on each action, whether it’s taking my medication, brushing my teeth, or enjoying breakfast. I savor the flavors and textures of my food, reminding myself to slow down and experience each bite fully. This intentionality helps create a sense of calm amidst the chaos that can accompany Bipolar disorder.

Even simple tasks, like taking a walk, become an opportunity for mindfulness. I pay attention to the sounds of nature, the feeling of the ground beneath my feet, and the scent of fresh air. By using all my senses, I immerse myself in the moment, enhancing my awareness and appreciation for life’s small joys.

How Mindfulness Affects Bipolar Management

The connection between mindfulness and emotional regulation is profound. Research has shown that mindfulness practices can help stabilize mood swings and enhance emotional resilience. For me, the most powerful aspect was learning how to respond to my emotions rather than react. Instead of feeling overwhelmed by anxiety or sadness, I learned to observe those feelings as temporary states.

I still remember a particularly challenging day when my emotions felt like a roller coaster. Instead of spiraling, I took a moment to breathe and check in with myself. Acknowledging that I was feeling low, but knowing it wouldn’t last forever, brought me a sense of peace.

Mindfulness also allows me to recognize early signs of mood shifts. When I feel my thoughts racing or my emotions intensifying, I can take a step back and engage in a mindful practice—whether that’s deep breathing or simply reminding myself to be present. This awareness has helped me manage my condition more effectively, reducing the intensity of mood swings.

Mindfulness Techniques for Managing Bipolar Disorder

Incorporating mindfulness into your daily life can take many forms. Here are some techniques that have worked for me:
  • Mindful Breathing: Focus on your breath, noticing each inhale and exhale. This can help center your thoughts and calm your mind. I often do this when I feel anxious or overwhelmed.
  • Meditation: Start with just a few minutes a day. Use apps like Headspace or Calm to guide you. Gradually increase the time as you become more comfortable. I find that a short morning meditation sets a positive tone for my day.
  • Yoga: Incorporating yoga into my routine has been transformative. It encourages physical movement while fostering mental clarity. As I flow through poses, I focus on my breath and the sensations in my body.
  • Body Scan: Lie down comfortably and mentally scan your body from head to toe, noticing areas of tension or discomfort. This practice promotes relaxation and self-awareness. I often do this in the evening to unwind after a busy day.
  • Mindful Eating: Eating mindfully means savoring each bite, paying attention to flavors, textures, and the experience of nourishment. I take my time during meals, allowing myself to fully appreciate what I’m consuming.
  • Nature Walks: Spending time in nature is a powerful way to practice mindfulness. During my walks, I engage my senses—listening to the birds, feeling the breeze, and noticing the colors around me. This connection to the natural world can be incredibly grounding.
These techniques don’t require hours of commitment. Even a few minutes can make a difference. I often find myself pausing during stressful moments to practice mindful breathing, which has become second nature over time

Overcoming Challenges in Mindfulness Practice

Let’s be real—sticking to a mindfulness routine can be tough, especially with Bipolar I disorder. Some days, my mind races with thoughts that seem impossible to quiet. However, acknowledging this struggle is part of the process.

Here are some tips to help you stay consistent:
  • Start Small: Set realistic goals. Even a minute of mindfulness can be effective. I often remind myself that it’s okay to begin with just a few deep breaths.
  • Be Kind to Yourself: Remember, it’s okay to have days where mindfulness feels out of reach. Allow yourself to be imperfect. On particularly challenging days, I focus on simply being aware of my thoughts without judgment.
  • Create a Routine: Integrate mindfulness into your daily rituals. Whether it’s morning meditation or evening reflection, find a time that works for you. Establishing a consistent routine has been key for me, as it creates a structure that supports my practice.
  • Seek Support: Joining a mindfulness group or finding an accountability partner can help keep you motivated. Sharing experiences with others on a similar journey has been incredibly beneficial for me.
Mindfulness is not about perfection; it’s about progress and being gentle with ourselves. It takes practice to cultivate this way of living, and every small step counts.

Integrating Mindfulness with Other Treatment Options

Mindfulness should not replace traditional treatments for Bipolar I disorder but can serve as a powerful complement. Combining mindfulness with medication and therapy creates a holistic approach to managing our mental health.

I encourage you to speak with your healthcare provider about how mindfulness can fit into your treatment plan. The integration of mindfulness has helped me cultivate a deeper understanding of my emotions, which I believe enhances the effectiveness of other treatments.

Mindfulness can also foster a greater sense of community. Sharing mindfulness techniques with fellow individuals managing Bipolar disorder can create a supportive network. This shared experience can reinforce the understanding that we are not alone in our journeys.

The Science Behind Mindfulness and Mental Health

Research continues to support the positive impact of mindfulness on mental health. Numerous studies have found that mindfulness can reduce symptoms of anxiety and depression while improving overall emotional well-being. For instance, a meta-analysis published in The Journal of the American Medical Association (JAMA) Internal Medicine found that mindfulness meditation programs were associated with moderate improvements in anxiety, depression, and pain.

These findings resonate deeply with my experience. Practicing mindfulness has enabled me to develop coping strategies that reduce the impact of mood swings and emotional distress. The ability to step back and observe my feelings has given me a newfound sense of control over my mental health.

The Role of Mindfulness in Preventing Relapses

One of the most significant challenges in managing Bipolar I disorder is the risk of relapses. Mindfulness can play a crucial role in identifying early warning signs and preventing severe episodes. By practicing mindfulness regularly, I’ve become more attuned to changes in my mood and behavior, enabling me to address potential issues before they escalate.

For example, if I notice signs of increased energy or racing thoughts, I can take proactive measures—whether that’s reaching out to a support network or implementing grounding techniques. This proactive approach has helped me maintain stability and avoid more significant disruptions in my life.

Mindfulness as a Path to Self-Compassion

One of the most transformative aspects of mindfulness is its capacity to foster self-compassion. Living with Bipolar I disorder can often lead to feelings of shame or frustration. However, through mindfulness, I’ve learned to approach myself with kindness and understanding.

When I experience a setback, instead of criticizing myself, I remind myself that it’s part of the journey. Mindfulness encourages me to accept my feelings without judgment, fostering a sense of compassion toward myself. This shift in perspective has been invaluable in my mental health journey.

Final Thoughts

Mindfulness has become an essential part of my journey in managing Bipolar I disorder. Its ability to promote emotional awareness and stability cannot be understated. I encourage you to explore mindfulness practices, starting with what feels comfortable for you.

As you embark on this journey, remember that mindfulness takes practice. It’s a skill that develops over time, so be patient with yourself. Share your experiences and techniques with others, and consider joining a community that supports mindfulness practices.

If you’re looking for more insights, check out my comprehensive guide, How to Start Managing Bipolar Disorder: A Comprehensive Guide. This resource can provide you with more tools to support your mental health journey.

Remember, mindfulness is a practice, not a destination. Embrace each moment with curiosity, and you might find the peace you’ve been seeking. As you cultivate mindfulness in your life, you may discover a deeper connection to yourself and the world around you, enhancing your overall well-being and resilience.